Archive for November 3rd, 2009

Alright. I really don’t know if it’s the depression or just the mommy gene that is missing from me,but picking up my kid after school is just the worst time of my life! I feel like such a bad mother when I think… and say this, but it just is!!!

First, I’m always stressed when I go to pick her up. I have to park the car somewhere between the cars of other parents, walk in and sign the attendance list, ask the lady with either the cheery smile (which ticks me off) or the lady with the nasty look on her face (which also ticks me off) and wait for my daughter. Then I wait. With my winter coat on. Sweating. Listening to the noises of other children yelling, laughing etc. When my daughter shows up, she’s always so excited to see me and the only thing that comes out of my mouth is: “hurry up and put your coat on, mommy’s tired”. She would like to go on and on about her day, tell me of all the little 7 year old issues she is dealing with (like the little girl who would not play with her and the boy who tried to kiss her) but I DON’T CARE!!! That’s what I want to yell.

Then I get home and try to listen to my man express how his day went and his son tell me about the drawing he made, all this while making supper and I just want to yell at all of them and go to bed.

I had a stepmom growing up that always used to take a 30 minutes bath when she got home. Then she was so zen… so patient. She took the time to listen to all of us…

I wonder what other tricks I could use… any suggestions?

Alright… I don’t actually think that having a negative attitude can be good for you. But nobody can be an optimist all the time! And it seems to have its benefits, as this article suggests!

Thinking negatively can boost your memory

SYDNEY (Reuters) – Bad moods can actually be good for you, with an Australian study finding that being sad make people less gullible, improves their ability to judge others and also boosts memory.

The study, authored by psychology professor Joseph Forgas at the University of New South Wales, showed that people in a negative mood were more critical of, and paid more attention to, their surroundings than happier people, who were more likely to believe anything they were told.

“Whereas positive mood seems to promote creativity, flexibility, cooperation, and reliance on mental shortcuts, negative moods trigger more attentive, careful thinking paying greater attention to the external world,” Forgas wrote.

read more at: http://uk.reuters.com/article/idUKTRE5A111720091102?pageNumber=1&virtualBrandChannel=0

I find this question very difficult. Medication has helped me so far in recovering sleep. Other than that, I’m not quite sure what the effect is. I’m also a little at a loss because I don’t quite understand where depression comes from. I’m not quite sure the medical community knows either. It’s genetic or not, related to fast food or social circumstances? I found this article this morning where the author argues that medication is not the only answer. I totally agree with him. What makes everything difficult though, is not only finding the right therapist to fix your issues but actually finding the money to pay the said therapist…